CONCLUSION: EMOTIONAL OUTBURST

A time when you can't hold back emotions. A time when you need to say eveything you need to say to breath easily. It's hard comming from someone who doesn't say much about their feelings. So once and for all I said it, thru text. Not a good manner I suggest. It gives me chills as well. A long time partner who has been there for the longest time and proof, he's gone. Not literally, but you can't feel his presence anymore. At times you need to understand what it is,what that means, or how it is. Questions can't be answered! Period. To tell you it's not my intension to break up with that person. I don't. I really don't. I just want him to change his ways. It's tough. Yes, I did hurt him. His feelings, his ego, or maybe all parts of him. Eventually it will affect an aspect of his life. I don't know. Maybe I'll never know. I don't want to know. Or maybe I do. Really troublesome. I don't know what's gonna happen yet but I hope this will have a positive result.

CONCLUSION: LITE FOODS AT NIGHT

Training yourself to eat less that you're used to is really hard. As much as possible I want to eat less at night because they say, it will be hard to be digested since we wouldn't be doing anything after we eat. I guess that's true in my case, since my metabolism is really slow.

This time I eat light snacks or noodle type of  foods.  I can't observe this during the weekends since I am at home. My mom cooks a meal and I can't resist eating it with rice. So I follow this one during the weekdays because I am at work until 11 pm. I hope I get results from what I am doing. If not then that's OK, since it's important for me to train myself to eat less than the usual.

CONCLUSION: ON FIRE

Feels like I'm traumatized by the situation I've been through last Sunday. Someone shouting on our neighborhood was normal but this one was really shocking "SUNOG!". Everyone inside our house ran outside to check it. And hell it was big, red, blazing hot fire is coming near our house. We get back to the house and pack our things as quickly as we can. Pack our clothes, appliances, and important documents. It took us 10 minutes before we're done. My dad was in a panic state he kept shouting at me and my mom to get out of the house now. He and my boyfriend will be taking out the stuffs. Filipinos are known for bayanihan and it happened that day, that time. Some of our friends, far away neighbors, and relatives came to help us out.

Everything was out, we are outside, our things was outside the street. I panic since there are still no fireman around us. The fire was getting worse. I for one prayed and prayed so hard that our house wouldn't be burned by the fire. That's the only thing I can do. After a few minutes fire fighters are rushing to the street we're at. I was thinking "our house will be saved". They are Chinese fireman, they are known to be fast, and can take out fires in a short amount of time. Well I guess I was never wrong with that. About 15-30 minutes the fire was out but not completely. Our house was saved. We still have a place to live in to. I prayed again and thank the Lord.

brave men of the fire

Here's another part you will not be happy about. Some people have the nerve to rob us a midst the fire. There are 5-7 kids around the age of 8-12 years old who are coming towards our stuff. Only few of us are there to check our things because all of the boys are checking what going on with the fire. I'm so pissed at these kids and I cussed them so that they'll go away. Well they went away, however, I'm still checking whether they'll come back again. People these days don't know how to sympathize with the situation. I hope this wouldn't happen to them, so that they wont know the feeling.

I am thankful to God that he was listening to our prayer. He still bless us despite the fact that we don't go to church every Sunday. I don't want to promise his though that i'll be there every Sunday, but at least 2-3 times a month would do.

CONCLUSION: ON A BUDGET

As much as possible I want to enjoy the weekends with either my family or my boyfriend. Well I guess I enjoyed too much to the fact that I overspend. I had a Php. 500  extra money to spend for the weekends and another Php. 500 for my daily allowance next week. My family is craving for some J.co doughnuts so we bought a dozen but since my moms friends wants some too we shared the bill and bought two dozens of doughnuts (it's cheaper). Afterwards I went to visit my boyfriends house because our plan is to stay at his place and relax ourselves. And by relax we mean eat. We ate at a nearby karinderya(local Filipino diner) called Terry's. Nothing fancy but the food is good (if you want to try Filipino food) and affordable. Afterwards we went to a place near by to talk and enjoyed ourselves basically. We went back home and I noticed that I overspend and I have Php. 250 in my pocket.

Nerve raking moment to think I need to spend Php. 50 a day for my 5 days at work. Every day I tried to prepare my packed lunch so that I would just spend money on light snack. The Php. 50 a day include the fair and snack. Good think I was able to manage this for a week. I was amazed I was able to do that. Up until now I was thinking I deprive myself of the food I want to eat. But hey there's nothing wrong with that. I learned my lesson not to overspend again.

NOTE TO SELF:"PLAN AHEAD, NEVER LET THE THINGS YOU WANT RUIN YOUR BUDGET!"

PASSION: A SONG

I'm not usually into songs, but when I do I get hooked like for a long time. Sitti Navarro's songs are played so well. The tune of her songs are relaxing for me. The lyrics are easily to be understood. She is known to be a bossanova queen. She really is! Her voice is so mellow, you can listen to her all day er day.

I wish I had her voice, I'd definitely serenade my boyfriend. haha. I was listening to her particular song "Para Sa Akin" all day. Oh the beat was so perfect. It doesn't apply to my love life though. There was this one line I would say to my lifetime boyfriend. "Pangakong ikaw lamang ang iibigin mag-pakaylanman..." 

CONCLUSION: NETWORK PROVIDER

One leading cause of fights between couples is because of their communication. Imagine you already sent a text but your partner hasn't received any after a few minutes. Definitely a cause of problem! These days we rely on electronic communication with our friends our families, and our partners as well. Often times here in the Philippines messages come in late. Well as per what I know, if we sent an SMS to someone that person should receive it on his/her phone after 30 seconds. Isn't that fast! But that's not the usual thing here. Every time it's raining we experience late messages, having hard time calling, or registering to unlimited calls/text and sometimes it so happens that you never as in never receive a particular message. Most of the time this happens to me and my mom, we both have different network providers for our phone. She said she texted me already, but I said to her I haven't receive any even if its the next day.

Well I can't do much on this issue. Network providers should try to resolve not just this but these issues. Partners should just understand the fact that electronic communication isn't perfect as we wanted it to. Keep in mind that relationships are not bounded by mishaps. Enjoy most of your time Together. :)